Really Kevin?

I'm really sorry I haven't been writing emails. I'll be honest it's not because I haven't had time to I'm just lazy and don't feel like writing them, but hey I wrote this one so thats a start.

 

 

To start I do want to say these emails will have more spiritual experiences than in my previous emails because that's what the mission is all about, so I hope that's alright.

 

 

This week was pretty interesting we had transfers so it's officially not my first transfer anymore! Elder Ling left and got replaced by Elder Schauerhamer (Say it like Shower Hammer) and he's a nerd. Absolute geek. But I love him to death and he's hilarious, every time we meet with the mission president he asks if Dungeons and Dragons can be unbanned. The answer is always no but he's asked 4 times this week so at least he's trying. He's from Tennessee and doesn't like country music. Weird right? 

 

 

I myself have been doing OK, this is where the email is gonna get real deep so if you don't like that don't read it. It's gotten to the point in my mission where I have to choose what I want. There is no balance here. There is no one foot in one foot out. I have to make a choice, go all in and be exactly obedient (which is the hardest thing for me to do ever) or I be one of the "apostate" missionaries who have fun on their mission but don't do any work. I won't get any more into that because frankly I don't want to but just know I'm either gonna be a fire missionary or I'm coming home and I'm praying and hoping it's not the latter.

 

 

The spirit is real. It's weird to say because I went so long in my life without feeling it. Now that I have it with me everywhere I go all the time it's a different but awesome experience and the opportunities it brings for other people are unreal. People are obviously very skeptical of us but when we tell them to just read the dang book of mormon and they do you can see the change in them. All of them if they read it with an open mind feel something and it's been amazing to witness. The truth is there is a mold in the church there always has been and there always will be. But that doesn't mean you don't belong there, heck I don't fit the mold look at me, but I now know there is a place for everyone, I'm still very much a rebel, so much so I think my comps think I'm like the antichrist or something, but I know what I'm doing is true, even though it took me a whole transfer to figure that out.

 

 

God loves you, I love you don't be afraid to email me back even if I take a week to respond

 

 

P. S. Really Kevin is something we say instead of swearing because it's funnier if you wanted to know

 

 

-Elder Welder